½ Marathon Training
(Photo Journaling what works and what doesn’t on flickr)
This is a long entry, so if you bore easily move on.
Last night on the Biggest Loser there was this dude talking about a challenge where he had to climb a 65 foot tree and then zip line off the tree to the ground. He was scared of heights, so he wouldn’t get on the zip line, he held onto that tree for dear life. Finally he said that he started chanting to himself
“New me, new me, new me!” and he lept off that tree stand. As he was zipping down to the ground, in his mind he saw the old him hanging on to the tree, trying to pull new him back. He said at that moment he knew he would never be the same. Listening to his story I had a break thru.
During my last long walk, I hit a wall, the pain was miserable, my Ipod was dead and it was cold outside. I could stop, but knew I had to move on. And to mysel f I said, “I can do this, I can do this.” That is when I pushed thru to mile six and then seven and then 8.
All my life I’ve been afraid. Afraid to make a mistake, afraid to fail, afraid to look stupid. Afraid people won’t like me.
As I pushed thru the pain, I realized I’m not scared any longer. I’ve come to a level of acceptance. I’m not afraid to fail anymore. If I fail, it doesn’t mean I’m stupid or a failure. It just means that I failed. I’ll Dust myself off and try, try again.
Good self esteem doesn’t mean I’m proud or arrogant, it just means that I’m ok with my limitations.
On that trail in the cold, and without an Ipod to distract my mind, I said goodbye to the Old scaredy cat Jaymie and Hello to –new- and- improved- ready- to- live-life-in-technicolor- Jaymie.
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*Note to self* There can be beauty from pain.
(Photo Journaling what works and what doesn’t on flickr)
This is a long entry, so if you bore easily move on.
Last night on the Biggest Loser there was this dude talking about a challenge where he had to climb a 65 foot tree and then zip line off the tree to the ground. He was scared of heights, so he wouldn’t get on the zip line, he held onto that tree for dear life. Finally he said that he started chanting to himself
“New me, new me, new me!” and he lept off that tree stand. As he was zipping down to the ground, in his mind he saw the old him hanging on to the tree, trying to pull new him back. He said at that moment he knew he would never be the same. Listening to his story I had a break thru.
During my last long walk, I hit a wall, the pain was miserable, my Ipod was dead and it was cold outside. I could stop, but knew I had to move on. And to mysel f I said, “I can do this, I can do this.” That is when I pushed thru to mile six and then seven and then 8.
All my life I’ve been afraid. Afraid to make a mistake, afraid to fail, afraid to look stupid. Afraid people won’t like me.
As I pushed thru the pain, I realized I’m not scared any longer. I’ve come to a level of acceptance. I’m not afraid to fail anymore. If I fail, it doesn’t mean I’m stupid or a failure. It just means that I failed. I’ll Dust myself off and try, try again.
Good self esteem doesn’t mean I’m proud or arrogant, it just means that I’m ok with my limitations.
On that trail in the cold, and without an Ipod to distract my mind, I said goodbye to the Old scaredy cat Jaymie and Hello to –new- and- improved- ready- to- live-life-in-technicolor- Jaymie.
______*________*
*Note to self* There can be beauty from pain.